I had a great New Years Eve, I spent it with my close friends in a low key night.  We were planning on going downtown somewhere but soon realized that paying $50 to be a cramped club with overpriced drinks was probably not going to work so we just decided to go to a friends house, drink some wine, and have fun.  And we did have a lot of fun because we just got to hang out and be our crazy selves, and we talked about what we were proud of during 2008.  I realized it was a mixed question for me, although I am so proud of myself and what I accomplished last year, I feel like my life is still a train wreck, but I know that 2009 can only get better and I am excited about the changes that I am going to make sure to happen in my life.  I am proud that I made it though a semester at the U of M, going full time and still being able to spend adequate time with my daughter, I am proud that I moved out of my ex's and took charge of my life, and I am proud that I now have my own apt and am on my way to independence and not depending on the ex for support.

Although I feel like I am in this uphill battle that seems insurmountable, I feel like I will be able to win.  I know that if I hadn't gone back to school, I would have been in a much worse place right now, it has given me a pride in myself that I can do something that seemed impossible, going back to school, without a car, with a daughter to take to daycare and pick up, and all doing this on my own.  I know now that I can do it, I can do all this on my own, I don't need a man to help me out. 

So I am looking forward to 2009 and becoming more stable, I am still looking for a job like everyone else in the world, and I feel like I have a million things to do before the next semester starts, but I now have a new perspective on my life, I know I can do it and I will make it on my own.