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Thank you so much, men are a mystery to me, as I suspect women are to men.

I appreciate your comments.

Have a great day.

Take care

I went into the doc and they did do a thyroid test...so hopefully soon I will have some answers. It could also be anemia or vitamin d deficiency.

It's amazing how these little comments make such a difference to children. I'm trying to think of something... I think it may have had to do something with how I talk too much or something.

I do wonder if it came out of a woman with some dymentia or something... after all, no one in their right mind would make a comment like that!

Ha, as long as you keep the keys in the house - he sounds like he's pretty advanced!

Just sayin' "hi" :) How's that sweet Chedda doing? Any new developments? I remember marveling at every single stage of babyhood with mine! XOXO

Thanks dear... I cuddled with Sophia a little extra today as I embraced the moments that may have been lost. Thankfully, I can appreciate my kids each and every day and need to recognize the importance of taking notice of these precious moments.

I'm starting to think about all that I've done over the last year and am beginning to appreciate the hard-work that school has been. I think I do want to celebrate, it's just a matter of deciding what I want to do.

Thanks dear... I thought alot about that today. I want to be the courageous woman who can stand tall in who she is... but today I was broken and trying to stay open. I also don't want to be like the women who shut themselves off. I cannot put up all those walls and allow myself to become hard and bitter. Staying open is extremely hard when you've been hurt by family. Sometimes trusting in the ones that are supposed to not hurt you can be worse than being hurt by "friends". Yet, I am supposed to find my identity and maintain my courage while resting in my support-network. This requires openness. I grappled with this today. I am trying to let go and allow myself to be loved instead of curling up in a ball and pushing the walls up. I cannot protect myself from pain, but I can walk through it. Does that make sense?

Thanks for the encouragement, Kelly. Right now, I just feel like I have to fight through. It's frustrating being alone in my family on this one. They are convinced that I continue to be sick because of my project. Honestly, 2 doctors have now said that it is unrelated, just poor timing. I found out last night that I have pneumonia. Great. So, I've been sick for 2 weeks straight and I'm going into my final week before this egg-donation and now I have gunk in my lungs. At least I am on an antibiotic regimine now so I see the light.

I don't even have the energy to really embrace this thing. Right now, I just want to get through. I want to finish what I started and help this woman have a baby. Everyone seems to think I'm crazy. I'm not trying to kill myself. However, I'm unwilling to stop because I got sick. I can still give myself shots and get to my ultrasounds. All I need to do is survive for another week, then I'll be all better on both fronts. *sigh*

I just don't have the energy to fight them all and that doesn't help because I'm just too bogged down to put up much of an intellectual fight.

Thanks for the kind words. Sorry to hear that you lost both of your grandmothers. Just courious, how long did they have to suffer with this terrible diesase?