The development of “AWAKENINGS” comes out of a desire to give other women the freedoms I have experienced and not have to endure the same struggles to get there. My business partner and I want to provide a safe and sophisticated place for women to explore books, items, and information relating to their sensuality and know that it’s natural and nothing to be ashamed of. It is our hope that through the products, services and resources available through Awakenings, women will find their voices and discard unhealthy stigmas; couples will rediscover their passion and intimacy as well as rekindle the relationship they once had, and knowledge will result in power for a whole new generation of women.
A Woman’s Journey
Saturday, August 4, 2007, 03:44 PM CST
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At the age of 44, I found myself alone and with the new title of “widow”. After 16years of marriage, I was a single woman with no warning or time to prepare for it. I went through an assortment of emotions and reflection on my past life. As expected, I experienced the “would have, should have” thoughts as it related to my relationship. I should have said “I love you” more; should have shown more interests in some of his hobbies; should have been more sensual and affectionate; should have made more effort to make him happy; should have found my voice to let him know what would have made me happy; but most importantly, should have given him more attention. There was always the thought that when my daughter was older and had more interests of her own, my husband and I would find our way back to each other and rediscover the passion we once knew. We still loved each other very much; however we allowed the demands of our lives to take precedence and seldom found enough time for “us”. I had hoped one day we would find a way to not let the demands of our busy life cause us to put our intimate time together on the back burner. Well, unfortunately, that was not in God’s plan as my husband was taken away from me far too soon. For a year after my husband’s death, I shut down all ideas of having any relationships. I had no idea how to re-engage and no idea of what was important to me as it related to a relationship. During this time, I turned inward and decided to get to know “me” better. After all, I hadn’t seen this single woman in 16 years and she was much different than the 30-year-old women I once knew. During this time, I visited a childhood friend in London. While there, we talked about every subject possible, including our sexuality as older single women. Upon my departure, she presented me with a gift. This gift would soon force me to confront my personal stigmas about sex and sexuality. Yes, at the age of 45, I was presented with my 1st vibrator. Not only was it my 1st encounter but also I was challenged with transporting it through customs and the risk of being discovered by strangers. I was also faced with the fear of my 11-year-old daughter inadvertently discovering such a provocative toy in my possession. When I got home, I immediately stashed this strange apparatus in a safe place and called my best friend and told her, “Should I die an untimely death, please get here and dispose of this thing before anyone finds out”. Well, one year later and a lot less intimidated by the subject of sexuality, I am exploring true intimacy. I have found my voice and this former Catholic prude is in the process of being liberated. I now know that sensual pleasures are not perverse. I know that I can believe in God and still find sensual satisfaction. I know that I should speak up about what I like and dislike. I know that I can experiment as long as my health and well-being are not at stake. And most importantly, I know that there is much more to intimacy than sex.
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After 17 years of marriage, we have found that keeping it new, hot and spicy in the bedroom is the only way to go. We are planning on coming in to check out your store in the near future!
Yes_Forever07:18 PM CST